Some years are filled with many blessings. Other years are filled with many challenges. At the end of every year, I reflect.
What have I learned in this past year? What would I have done differently? What do I desire for my future? Who am I?
Have I become a better person? Have I overcome obstacles? Have relationships been strengthened? How is my relationship with Christ?
As I close out calendar year 2012, I am stuck in bewilderment as with many other years past. What do I write in my family newsletter? How do I document the year? Where is my focus?
2012 was a difficult year. Do I document the difficulty to only give glory to its presence, or do I ignore it as if living an unrealistic existence of which none could relate? There are many things I would choose to remain in 2012 to not enter 2013, but as life would have it I do not have a choice with what follows me into the upcoming year.
What will the new year bring? 2013 sounds as an odd year. My preference is for ‘even’ numbers seemingly as if the mere fact of an even number creates for a more positive grounding entering the year. Who likes an odd number anyway? Does anyone want to be the odd man out? Or, even worse, the lonesome traveler of ‘party of 1’, yes, ‘it’s just me’? These seem to not be enticing or even attractive to the ears as if to leave the mind asking, “Something is indeed wrong with this picture!!”
So, I sit with my computer screen before me this night with a rambling of thoughts of a writer left asking many questions and pondering deep thoughts. And, with that, the main question, “Do I share the ponderings of my heart in writing for all to read?”
For the last couple months, I’ve questioned if I could write for 365 days. I struggled with the thought to begin in November. Then, the thought shifted to December. And, now, the thought shifts to 2013…. 2013 an odd year to begin… a New Year to unfold…
365 days of writing…………… is it possible? and, what would be written? I suppose only time will tell……………..